c'mon people

Man, i have a lot of thoughts today! I'm hoping that other people will find my blog. Random people that live in other parts of the world. I intentionally didn't invite any one but so far 2 of my friends have found me. yay! Granted, I follow their blogs so they probably saw my face pop up on the side, but either way, they "followed" me. I just sarted reading Redeeming Love, so far it's very interesting. Can't wait to finish! Anyone else read any good books lately?

Live Music

I love live music! Tonight Brandon and I are going to go honky tonkin down in the stockyards at Billy Bob's to see Cross Canadian Ragweed. I don't know too many of their songs, but I do enjoy live music. I'm excited! I need a pick me up and i think this will do it!

On another note, i've now lost 6.8 lbs on weight watchers and just finished my first month. 4 weeks down, several more to go. I was hoping for 7 but at least I saw some loss this last week. I will stay focused and I will do this!

Rocky Road

Things change, people change, lives change and your actions affect those around you. I think it would at least be decent to let someone you "care" about know that they've hurt you. Don't harbor it. It only creates a circle of self pity. I can't change those things that I'm unaware of. Even being aware of them won't change me as a person but I will at least do my best to communicate in a different way. When did it become okay to be angry at someone for hurting you and then treat them poorly because you haven't told them they've hurt you. Aren't you yourself then being hypocritical? At least my actions weren't intentional. To avoid me or flat out ignore me is intentional. That hurts.

Time for a change

You know what, what the heck, maybe i'll work on writing more. It's good for the soul. A few random things...

-I watched Must Love Dogs for the first time tonight. I found myself creating a blog in the middle of it...

-I LOVE The Notebook. I love the way it makes me feel. I hate the sobbing the ensues at the end, but I love the story of love conquering all!

-I feel like i'm at a strange point in my life. I've been married now for just shy of 4 years, not ready for kids yet, and kind of feel like i'm in a holding cell. Obviously that's the next step and believe me, it's the one people ask about plenty. Just not ready yet, but some day...For now, i want to keep enjoying Brandon and I.

-I'm a love sick fool!

-I sometimes think that a camera should be following my every move and filming for a reality show. I also sometimes act differently when I'm by myself because of this. Then I wake up and realize how absolutely ridiculous it is, but then still kind of hope for it! Ha!

-Apparently I need therapy...

-I was going to title this blog "what the hell" but then when I really read it out loud, it doesn't sound like me. Any time I try to say a cuss word, it doesn't fit. It's like cuss words weren't made to come out of my mouth. It would be like you singing opera to speak in regular sentences. But I do know when you're being a bitch so you better get outta my **cking way...see what I mean, doesn't fit.

-I'm on a personal weight loss journey. I've decided this is the year that I have to lose weight. I'm 27, I shouldn't weigh what I currently way, ever and certainly not in my 20's! I've gained 25 lbs since my wedding. Gross...but improving every day!

Okay, feeling better for the evening.

The beginning of what could possibly be the end...

So this is my first post. I don't usually have much to say. Sometimes I come across as boring, but i'm really not!! With all that being said, this may be my only post...